BY AMBER BATEMAN

6/3/2024

Welcome to Delve Mental Health and the start of the Delve blog! I am so excited for this new adventure and what may come of it.

Also, I am terrified.

I’ve been doing a lot of reflecting on why I am feeling this way and I think it comes down to one word. Pressure. I feel pressure to perform well. To create something excellent and useful and different from everything else out there on the internet. “What will set my blog apart?” the start-your-blog-tutorial YouTube video asks me. I think I know what they mean, but honestly what a question. If I start to think about it too much (and I tend to do that), I start to panic about the 600 million blogs on the internet worldwide and wonder how in the world I am supposed to know what sets my blog apart.

It just feels like a lot of pressure, modern culture I mean. With access to so much information and so many resources, many of us can feel quite insecure. Because what if I’m not good enough to ‘break the internet’ with my content? What if the people in my life find out I’m just an average person? Would that really be so bad? Modern society does pressure us to maintain a perfect image, but do we actually have to do that to ourselves?

I don’t know all the answers. But I know this. I have often wasted too much time trying to be perfect or at least leading others to think I’m close to perfect. And today, I’d just rather focus on something else. So I’m going to post this post knowing it’s imperfect and go eat some Mayfield’s Moose Tracks with my husband. What are you going to do?